When writing seems pointless

Perhaps it's the emptiness of words or the rambling of why's in my brain, of what it all means. This blogging thing, writing words, this one-with-a-million-other words and a drop which doesn't even reach the bucket kinda thing.

Seems small. And I am. Insignificant really. And I need more of it. Less. Lesser and more little.

I have sin-nature which loves self and this isn't why I love words. But if I hold the mirror long enough, the questions come and only my self truly asks. What it all amounts too anyway?

Nothing.

And everything.

This speck in eternity, a wisp of His breath, a reminder of magnitude greater than me and it's only for One I write which amounts to anything at all. My little nothings are just that, when done for self, for vanity, for accolades, for something to be something when I already am. Something. Because of Somebody and nothing else.

And isn't this why we write? Why we blog and spill words and some dreary days, wonder why we are here anyway?

There's the answer. It's the Wonder of it....

To praise with tongue, confess with mouth, or blogs, this Wonder which draws us time and again to spell out Inspiration. Only then do I remember why. And days like today, yesterday, or the days before is when I need reminders.

It's true. We are nothing, alone. But we have this One thing which is worthy of words, blows our nothings out of the water and this why we. keep. writing.

Gratitude's on Marriage and leaving them at Ann's:

Tammy--
--the equal yolking which doesn't only come in relationship to Him, but also in our spiritual walks going hand-in-hand together and leading eachother along our journeys to go deeper and higher
--oh for the grace only He can give for eachother's faults and how Love covers a multitude of our cracked clay selfs
--the art of math where 2 are made 1, a picture of Heaven uniting us uniquely, unlike the world offers and how marriage is a shadow of our Betrothed...I'm reminded of this often
--knowing weaknesses are when one can be strong for the other and also how an opportunity for allowing His strength to flex in us
--marriage is like an iron sharpens iron and a constant evaluating and reevaluating my heart and searching out God's Spirit to dig up any root of flesh


Kim's--
--I am thankful for a lifelong partner and friend.
-- I am thankful that our marriage has provided a stable and loving environment in which our boys can grow up.
--I am thankful for all that God has taught me through marriage about love, giving selflessly, and the relationship between Christ and the church.
--I am thankful that our marriage relationship has allowed us opportunities to minister to others.

Michelle--
--thankful to have someone share in the daily duties of parenting
--that my husband actively participates in bedtime routines--where we each spend one on one time with each child
--making memories and hopefully instilling values, character and virtue to them (our kids)